My Baptism Testimonial

Very excited! Sunday, I am taking the next logical step in my faith: baptism. I was asked to write a testimonial to read in front of everyone. Let me know what you think?

"Up until just a few months ago, I was meandering listlessly through my life, with no direction and no fulfillment. I was hateful to my family, and poisoning the world around me with cynical words and harsh actions. I had dropped out of college and no longer had an acceptable plan for my life. I decided, upon seeing the change God made in my mother's life, to attend church. I discovered the unconditional love God and Christ hold for me, and nothing in my life has ever been so overwhelming or meaningful. Now, with the help of God, my mother has saved me like she has done so many times before. I am no longer afraid to tell the world what sort of person I used to be because I am proud of the positive, spirited, confident, and above all, on-track woman I am today. God has changed everything in my life, and has transformed me into the person those closest to me (and more importantly, myself) always hoped I could be. Where there was darkness, there is now beauty and brilliance, and I can fully see the right path He has created for me."

To: ...

People are much like water, cutting it's way through the landscape, meandering it's own way along the terrain. My last relationship has taught me a lesson that is very valuable: we may become comfortable as a couple, or even in ourselves. And while comfort is important and absolutely vital, it cannot become us. Recently I took some time to sit back and meditate upon my life, the changes it has taken. I looked through years of pictures, images from my past bringing to the forefront of my heart sentiment. And while I realized that was my life--the hate, the love, the pain, the times of sheer and unadulterated happiness--I also realized that it just isn't me anymore.

I write this in the wake of a new chapter of my life. I am quietly, and with a half-smile and an eyeful of tears, gently closing this chapter and bidding it a final goodbye.

Scott, I mainly write this to you. To let you know that it was fun and beautiful while it lasted. But just like my spiked haircuts, raccoon eyeliner, punk phases and bad attitudes, I am putting it behind me to move on and become a different person, hopefully better. It just isn't who I am anymore. I am ready to embark on the next decade of my life and discover who I am on an all-important personal level. I am ready to discover and explore my faith. I am ready to commit to being the person I've always wanted.

So thank you. Much like the other relationships in my past, I owe you that. However subtle the hand is, it has done it's part in sculpting my life.